Time for a bit of an update...I nearly forgot I had this blog....but now that I do remember it, I'm going to be putting it to use....so...first order of business....
This past weekend, my band had to replace our bassist, who is likely very angry with me right now...We have had a few meetings and several phone calls trying to figure out how to make it work with him in the band...finally enough was enough and on friday we had one final meeting...a practice to see how we sound without him to rule out once and for all the sound issues we've had with him...well...the day of that pratice, the guy asks me if I know when we are getting together again...i told him I didnt know, because I didnt know how to say "We're meeting tonight without you to discuss any passibly way to keep you before letting you go"....he found out when we let him go on friday...so yeah...probably angry with me...I know he is to be perfectly honest....
So I've been stressed out about that....I've also been worried about my wife. Her medical condition had been very scary the past several months...And I've been having some odd medical problems....I'm thinking maybe chronic depression but I dont know....I cant sleep..when I do it doesnt refresh me...I have bouts where I can barely stay awake that hit from nowhere...but aside from that and some chronic pain I feel fine....
I'm extremely busy these days.....and it seems that there is always something big being put in my way....yeah...I'm stressed....I'm angry a lot of the time when thinking about issues like our government or the way I am treated by people...espeially that one though.....
Too many people I know seem to think that I have some problems that I cannot deal with on my own...I have people telling me they are worried about me or that I've not been acting myself. STOP. Nobody needs to be worried about me or concerned about me. I'm spiritually feeling better than I have in a few years...an despite these nagging health issues, I am atually feeling okay. Life is good. MY life is good...I can take care of myself....It gets old having people come and ask me if I'm alright...or telling me I dont seem like myself....I feel like myself.
yes this is a rant.....and I tend to get myself into trouble with rants these days...but I'm not buying into it anymore. I am who I am...I'm not trying to be who others think I should be anymore...that life was too hard...and fake.
